It's been a LONG time since I put anything on this post. So an update is in order.

I went back to work on December 1. Didn't really want to go back EVER but I knew that if I waited until January it would be a real challenge to go straight into service records. And starting December 1 means I would get the 12-day Christmas break. So that's what I did. I broke down and cried the 2nd week in. The first few days were great, then the usual challenges of that particular workplace got to me and my boss called me on it. We chatted and I wept - I simply could not hold back the tears. "If the ground opened up and it consumed me, I would be perfectly happy with that" is what I said. And I meant it. Sad huh?

Well, I'm doing much better since then, thankfully. However, my emotions are still running wild. I have a lot of anxiety. I never felt anything like this while going through the surgeries and even the radiation treatments were not too hard on my emotions. But now, it seems to be catching up with me. The last few weeks have been really tough. Every night I need drugs to be calm enough to go to sleep and STAY asleep. Is this what my life will be like until I die? Being on drugs to function? I suppose that would simply put me into the same boat as millions of others right?!

Andrea and Clint came for Christmas which was just wonderful but sheesh, I am SO TIRED now! It will be nice to have a few days to myself at home, peace and quiet, no work, Ralph gone at work for a few hours, all day to clean and cook and do the things that I won't be able to do once I return to work next Monday.

Christmas was wonderful. A picture needs to go in here now!

Peter, Ralph, Me, Stephen, Tess

I feel rather large these days. My attempts to go vegan have not been fruitful! Next year I'm either making a vegetarian meal or I'm going to buy turkey dinner! Hah! I'm sick of cooking the whole meal - so much work! Andrea helped in the kitchen which was wonderful and Ralph washed up all the dishes afterward. So nice. I was wiped out by the time we were done.

Mom & Dad with his usual gift of aftershave!

Kristina and Andrea - such a photogenic pair!

 

Dec 24 Supper Buffet

I don't even have pictures of Christmas Day! How ridiculous! 

Last night we went to the movies and saw "Avatar". What a viewing experience that was in 3-D - so colourful, so incredible. The story was "eh" but a good one nevertheless. But wow, to see an entire movie in 3-D that is TRUE 3-D is simply an experience that everyone should have at least once in their lifetime. Peter tells me there are 3-D TV's out there but cost around $20,000. No demand yet and the technology probably isn't up to snuff just yet to be able to produce it for the general populace! But that certainly seems to be the way of the future: 3-D. Wow. 

That's about it for now. Must close my eyes and rest and it's only 11:15 a.m.!!!